When I'm down...I just draw some roses...on a pretty piece of paper...

I am once again playing the waiting game. I spent most of a Saturday trying to complete a spec script so that I could apply for the Warner Bros. Writing Workshop. I missed my friend's wedding and half of her reception to finish the script and put it in the mail. I made myself completely stressed and I think the stress caused me to get sick. I fought off a cold or whatever it was and I just want to move on and finish my next writing project. I'm also dealing with the guilt of having missed my friend's wedding after talking about being there for the last two months. At least I made it to see her. She looked gorgeous and from the sound of it everything went great.

I'm crossing my fingers and projecting myself into the position that I want to be in (I imagine happiness, and it runs right to me). I want to be selected. I want to move to Burbank, California and I want to be able to write professionally for a television show. It's been really hard for me to stay optimistic after I applied to graduate school and after 6 months and a major delay I was rejected. I saw myself there. I imagined what it would be like going to class and meeting other writers. I saw myself completing the program and meeting up with alumni of the program and working towards something good. But...that's not the case. I'm still in DC, working my full time job and plotting towards my goal.

My brother, Bomani Armah (www.notarapper.com), has a song called "The Hustle". "The hustle, 24/7 that's how I gotta be. The hustle, cause nothin' in this life's for free. Yeah the hustle, nobody wants it more than me. It's the hustle, the hustle." I need to add his album to my iPod because I need this song to keep motivated and not lazy and not to be discouraged. If I am going to get what I want, I need to hustle. I need to write everyday. I need to enter my scripts into every competition that will accept them. I need to think positively.

"Success is when preparation meets opportunity." I'm preparing myself so hopefully the right opportunity is around the corner.